Time wasn't mine!!

Today tomorrow i dreamt you shall be mine,

but life was rushing with time.

I wish i could blame faith of mine,

we know you tried but right wasnt the time.

Things were sorted in mind of mine,

i knew i was outa many things including time.

I kept waiting till the end of count down of mine,

i wished i just had a few years more of your time.

Forever i thought you would be mine,

but it all got rusted and fell apart with time.

Love - A rollercoaster ride

I am so confused,
i don't accept help but refuse,
i don't know what i want,
everyone just seems to appraise me with their taunt.


Do i love u?
Yes i do,
i see a future with u?
I don't know if i want to.


Circumstances are making your stand weak,
my love for u is not ready to leak.
My heart is strong, deep and wide,
but my mind seems to be on some unknown ride.


I wish i knew what i want,
i hope i don't end up deciding-i cant.
Shall i choose some1 unknown,
or go with some1 i have always known?


Never in life I have been so unsure,
shall i just close my eyes to be sure?
To Hear a whisper i wait and hold out my hand,
is our time running out like sand?
My mind is on things which are practical,
it denies luv and says its illogical.


Life is not theoretical,
r u ready to turn into a psycho or mental?

my impulsive-ness

My feet is cold,
my heart is sinking,
our site unfold,
and i stopped thinking.


My mind is racing,
but my body is pacing,
am spaced out,
i cant see and i cant shout!


The scream in me is quite,
i hope to quit
and i wish to sigh
with my heart rate being high


i am depressed,
i am suppressed,
i am opposing
my soul is decomposing.


Love cant help,
i puked it out myself,
i can feel my skin where insects crawling
i fight the urge to pierce my nail into body digging.

so we meet again

So we meet again,

on the same roads which has stains,

stains of our past tense,

summers, winters and rains.

I pushed you away,

was it wrong or right - still i doubt,

couldnt find another way,

still angry if you are just shout.

My path took me to places,

you met with a few people,

and our hearts skipped races,

we remember not all but few faces.

Your presence still does the same for me,

its like an adreline for my stream,

the way u smile the twinkle in ur eyes,

i can just sit and forget all the lies.

I always wondered was my decision right,

coz i did have arguements with mind,

i never gave up coz i couldnt fight,

i did stay awake for many long night.

Whatever happened in lifes of yours,

i feel my stars were your bad luck,

education, family, life hindered ofcourse,

jinxd is what i named and thats still stuck!

I wish you bestest of best for life,

greatest of love with your future wife,

like a kid i would crawl back if you need me as friend,

coz my friendship and love for you will never end!