What i did last night

Its been ages since i had a nice laid-back look at the sky.. The last i remember was when my flat's terrace dint have a semi-shade covering three-forth of its sky view.. I could lay back on the naked ground and sleep without giving a sh*t about people who could stare at me.. Life was great at 11! I had my Dada's easy-chair which i used to position right at the middle of the terrace from where the surrounding upper buildings tops dint cover the freedom of my imagination.. My dreams.. My thoughts.. My sense of self being.. all of these used to come alive.. Looking at the stars in the sky used to make me feel as may be all of them are looking right back at me and shining more to attract my attention.. The moon had different reflections that I could see and I had many dreams at night thinking as if I am flying high and all alone.. It was a wonderful feeling.. Lying on that chair I cant remember how many times i have dozed off and woke up at mid-night or 1 am.. I miss my Dada, now that he is gone i wonder if he is staring at me right now, must be getting irritated on my dad for not noticing that I am on the terrace at 4 am when the electricity went off.. He would also be worried about how i have become an insomniac, since he is gone it has gone worse.. But all this is only my thought.. I try to search him in the sky tonight wondering where he could be.. But these damn clouds, cant let me be happy with the thought of feeling connected with him..So now i noticed a cloud which looked like an angel, the way its always depicted in the myths.. With the wings and the crown above her head.. Of course its what the mind makes me think.. But whatever it may be, for the resting bodies an electric cut might have caused discomfort but at least for me it was what i really wanted - a connection with my memories.. I wanted to feel what it was like before.. Cant say mission accomplished but it has definitely got me refreshed with what it was like to have a "stop & rewind" in life..

Happy moments of past can never be re-lived again but happiness can be achieved by remembering how was the feeling off that lived part of happy life..