Soulmates?!

Is this what i had always dreamt about?
A world where i could always shout.
he had given me those dreams,
but now i am left alone and scream.

My happiness is gone with him,
I could see my dreams seeping in.
I wish i could change all the things,
and fly with him on the cloud wings.

For millions of years to come,
How could i ever be so dumb?
The dreams that he gave were never mine,
No wonder they never could shine.

are the bridges forever?
if they were, why werent we together ever?
Life is good even without you now,
but i wonder why sometimes i still drown.

Drowing into the wonderland was fun before,
now i can only see the illusions of oasis burn.
The ashes of my hopes keep falling from the sky,
which restricts my vision from seeing any high.

You are gone and the sun has set,
Orchids are the symbol of undying love,
Then why is autum there and the springs gone?
only the dead petals are left.